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    Jamestown! yes. im freaking going. i didnt get to go to DirtFest so this is 2nd best. i dont care what ma says. when mandy comes to picl me up im just going to walk out the door. i hope shell drive all the way out here for me.
its gonna be so freakin awesome. alex's cousin, london, lives around there somewhere so well stay at his house& get drunk!!! i hope i dont do nothing im gonna regret. he;s attractive and all, but when im intoxicated i would do just about anything...the last time, we all got high, just 3 of us stayed while the rest went to the store to get snacks. (his parents have a strict 'no junkfood' policy...if only they knew). me& london were channel surfing on the couch and the ring was on so we started to watch it. all of a sudden the grudge girl comes outta the tv&started liking my face. then she strted making out with me. so what if i liked it. anyway, mandy was all the way across the room, its seemed a lot further, and i was motioning to her to not let me die. i thought she was dead, but then she lifted her head up, and was like, "what the hell?!?, london, you have a g/f!". i swear this i was unaware of. its not like i really knew what was going on either, i was high, and he looked like the grudge girl. which, by the way, is real hot. in real life...

ive been hearing somethings that have been going on since ive been at work and it makes me upset. i just found out that the girl i like, likes another girl (or at least wants to make out with her), who kinda likes a guy that i used to have a crush on, who also dated the girl i like. not only that, but the other girl kinda likes the girl i like, too. now isnt that some bullshit?!?! theres no way in HELL i have the smallest chance with the girl i like. im not even pretty enuf for someone to like, besides she's not that way. damn this shit makes me so depressed. i really need to tke up a diff habit for my depression. these scars are getting really hard to hide. my ma knows i did it once, she doesnt know i still do. fucking Stacy Heilig reported me to Mr.Andy. i will never forgive her for that. for 2 weeks he pulled me into his office to do some Psychotherapy shit on me. what a deutch.

Today is my B-Day...woohoo!!! 

things are so complicated.

i like this girl who doesnt like girls, but will make out with them. she's so funny and i like her a lot, but now she goes to BASE so i dont see her anymore. i wanna tell her but i dont wann ruin our friendship.